when?

this is the time
it won't wait,it won't stay
in not being selfish human being
it just too soon and i'm not ready yet
the shadow is too dark
wish i could hide behind it
so nobody know what it's feels alike
i used to believe that
but that feeling has gone for forever
not asking much
just the basic in relationship
can't figure it out how stupid i am
not like others who are really pathetic
i'm trying not to be like one of them
i'm ready to take control for the rest of my life.