you have to...

big exam ;o

20 days left!

again...YOURSELF,

whats the worth?

yourself,

hurry
up!

what a day :DDD

can't wait for girls day out tmrw!

nobody,

trial exam for SPM,

keep my head above water.

growing up,

happy national day (:

happy birthday shazana ibrahim!

you choose,

when life gives you lemons you make lemonade.

well,

wink*wink*

we are running out of time but the sense of jealous is still there,
we have to cut the crap and be more sensitive on what we aim to the next level,
keep trying was never enough because there is no change on both sides,
stop being so innocent because i won't get fool by that attitude,
despite we still have a lot in common and sometimes it may lead us to be more closer,
hate to say but i don't like if we will be that way,
sorry.

gong yoo,

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa suka!

for a few hours only?

motif?

desperate,

need to buy something
to get my soul back!

one time,

as everybody was keep saying the same thing so i decided to try checking up the truth,
HA-HA-HA it's funny but i have to admit that they are telling the truth,
i can't help myself from laughing whenever i think about this,
maybe this is a good sign so that i can walk away from my past,
even though i can't get away from my bad habits but at at least i can try my new hobby silently (:
ok enough about that,
let's talk about something personal,
this is about someone that used to be my close friend,
well here it goes,
no matter how hard it's going to be or how the memories will end,
i hope you will not blame yourself,me or whoever because everybody will change,
and that is the fact that you have to face it.

who was born?

thanks mama <333

thanks pura <333>

ok first of all,happy birthday to myself,
i did enjoy my birthday for this year even though no more surprise birthday party like last year or last two years (hehe)
thanks for those who text me and their wishes,
today was fun,
the whole class seems happy because our stomach full with a delicious nasi beriani from byha :DDD

pura gave me blueberry cheese tart and throw some powder on my head,
well i don't mind because i'll do my revenge,
muahahahaha (evil laugh*)
enough for today,
say hello for a new day!

happy birthday to me!

flashback,

a tough week,

starts my weekend with a lovely lunch with mia and friendship day,
the next minutes ama came and join us,
having my preparation with my cousin and one comfortable night with them.

on sunday morning half of 5PD went for a picnic,
we had our fun and a blast day.
while we're having our fun,some people are having their hardest time
by handling their emotion due to lost of their good friend.
(al-fatihah)

spm,

lets counting down the days people!
3 months to go for sijil peperiksaan menengah,
our trial gonna be on 1 month from now,
hows my preparation?
so do your own calculate,mate!


p/s : SO-NOT-READY

P.S i love you

just finish watched this movie,
so sad and romantic,

listen,

i watched and read about something that touched my heart,
about how some kids survive in this cruel world,
and about how some youngsters trying so hard to find a way to further study,
they did not know the meaning of difficulty,
they have a strong soul and never give up in what they dream for,
they are the person who we should be proud,
their mental and physical is more strong than our politician,
they have to face more test than us because they are special,
i believe them as my morale booster.

;/

things are not going the way it should,

abah,

happy father's day!





with lots of love,
iman shamimi shahar (:

whtevr lah kan?

i won't be specific about this..
what is behind the sweet image?
decided to take matter into my own hands,
who's going to give a lot of help in the future?
it was the point where i needed to figure things out,
i am standing between the lines,
it will be much more easier if i considers everything is just a joke,
100 percent okey (:

whaaaat?

it just another day,
so let it gooooooooooooooooooo!

can you see it?

no more addiction
hehehe

but

new crush
:D

it's ok.

listen to some old songs,
and flashback,
and realize everything was out of the track,
gotta find something.

i pick up the pieces and move on.

<333

happy mother's day (:

and

happy birthday to nurfarahsyafikha :DDD


100509,

lv you ;D

happy birthday raihana!
<333

untitle.

this is how it goes,

don't move.

don't stop from where we're stand,let it be as far as it could be,
you knew better but you did nothing,i can't keep on pretending like nothing happen when it comes around me,
maybe stop for awhile would make things change to be something good,
like a war that we never know when it's gonna start or end,
go and find the answer for all my questions,then you will know,
i'm wondering when are you gonna think about the old us?don't you miss it?
do orientated your mind and refresh your heart till you realize,
i don't care about it at this moment,i'm talking about a year from now,
the motivation brings up your spirit again,you have to work hard on it,
wait..why suddenly everything related to each other,
seriously i need to stop now,the memory will fade away,
because i had enough.

not you,

shall i go and never look back?

pity me ;[

tell me,
tell me if there is anything wrong that i have done,
stop punished people like this,
you have no idea how far you have behave all this time,
i'm not going to argue about this for no good reason,
just stop all the game that you're playing now,
i suggest you to think the effect for you in future,
you're way too much and someday someone gonna say something,
we're different now,
its like theres a big wall between us..
i'm trying my best not to get caught by doing my own things,
you never noticed because you never care,
i keep hang on because i know this stupid nonsense will end soon.

tired,

not recover from the past,
it's hard losing you and it's hard to see you again,
i don't see another option,
you are too stupid to exist,
please return back the old me,
what am i talking about?
just keep silent,
because that is what you always do from the start,
thank youuuu.

maulidur rasul,

040409.

happy birthday cha!

happy birthday to my beloved cha (:

echa is the one who wearing the black shirt.
we do loves her so much and you are the best :DDD
xoxo,
3rd april '09

again and again.

here we go again,
it's funny how you want to change your life but you did not make any changes at all.
people are change but you are still the same.
at first you are the one who want to make this and that but thus you end up with nothing.
you might said that it just happen naturally and you did not plan for it.
but the truth is you can avoid it from happen.
ok let's just face the fact that you are so not over it,don't you?

-this is what it should be,so do not complaining.
burden of your own mistake and please think twice.

saturday night (:

we watched confessions of a shopaholic :D
yayy for us!
and currently like rihanna's new song
oh oh oh oh oh <333

for now.

well hello there,
everything does screws up
the spirits that supposed make my 2009 start well seems not worked out
the past month just wasted like that
most of my time full with chill and relax
is there an easy way to get rid of this feeling?
now is the time to close the gap
they're incredibly committed to transforming their past into something positive
the good news will make you think it's worth it
so instead of waiting for it,why don't just hunting for it
there are million different layer of ways
the longer you wait,the more difficult it becomes
learn to be ok with what i have.

hello world :D

yaya and bell

thanks aunt :DDD

yayayayayaya

bell to the la (:

do not read this.

do you like your partner right now?
don't hv any partner for now

are you in love right now?
yeah

with who?
edward

which edward?
hello? edward cullen of course

do you eat your lunch today?
nope

why?
i'm on diet HA-HA-HA
no lah,i had my brunch

do you miss someone right now?
yeah badly ;/

who?
juju a.k.a zulaikha

why don't you call her?
she did not picked up
grrr

do you feel like want to buy anything right now?
hell yah

what is that?
watch!

so why don't you just buy it?
i want to survey the hottest watch for this season first

are you happy right now?
kinda

well it sounds like not?
i said kinda
why do you care so much?
busybody

do you have any tv show that remind you of someone?
umm yeah

what?
the reaper

why?
mana boleh bagitau
secret

how come secret?
do i have to tell you everything?
it just remind me of someone,that all

do you have a crush on someone right now?
jap eh,let me think first

whats your answer?
i don't think i have one

why?
because i'm not into anybody right now

do you want anything from your brothers right now?
i want my rm180 back!

do you think they will pay you back?
nahhh

why?
they will ask my dad to pay for it

do you miss any vacation with your family right now?
yeah i do

when?
on end of 2006 kot
we went to pulau pinang

whats on your mind right now?
what is my SPM result?

are you ready for it?
ready for what?

SPM?you stupid
SPM heh?
umm not sure la but i'm ready for PMR
HA-HA-HA

what are you wish for your future?
a better life
and i can cook like a chef
or bibik to cook for me everyday

are you willing to wait for someone?
like who?

chad michael murray?
for sureee

what are the most thing that you love to do after got back from school?
what else?sleep!

can you play guitar?
you tell me

can you?
stop asking me this question

why do you love crapping,crapper?
so what?suka hati ah
and why are you wasting your time reading this?

why so many why?

why i have to take a shower while i can have my breakfast and sleep back?
why i have to go to school while i have to cook for my husband someday?
why i have to eat vegetables and fruits while i can eat fastfood and junkfood?
why i have to do my homeworks while i can watch tv for the whole day?
why i have to cook while i can just order pizza's?
why i have to listen what are you crapping while nobody wants to listen what am i crapping?
why i have to follow your order while nobody follow mine?
why pimples love me so much while i do hate them so much?
why i have to clean up my room when the room can clean up by itself?
why i still failed on my exam while i already copy my friends answer sheet?
why i have to go there when i can just stay here?
why i have to pay for my things when i can just steal and run away?
why i'm being such an idiot while i thought i am such a matured teenagers?
why i have wait for you while i can go there by myself?
why i care about you so much while you don't even care about me?
why i have to exercise while my weight just nice?
why you are not the one while i still believe that you are?
why i love you while i can love myself?
why i like to fight with my brothers while we can hang out together?
why i keep it alone while i can share with others?
why my mom and i are always arguing while we should spent our time with shopping?
why am i crying while i can scream out loud?
why am i still blogging while i should go to bed now?
why am i here while i have to sign out now?

why i want to say goodbye while i should say goodnight?

all day long,

the main event of every year
sportsday
nothing much but i had my fun :DDD
i'll upload the pictures that we took later.

your attitude make me sick,

when they say beauty without brain is equal to zero,i totally agree
but lately i noticed that certain of them which is really got the brain but they act without thinking
they just say what they wanna say without think other people feelings
this is so wrong
you want people to respect you but at the same time you treat other people very bad
we will respect you if you show some respect to us
you act like a retarded kids in street
not everything is always about you
you make yourself looked like an idiot
you have chosen the wrong way
do you think with your attitude like that people will salute you?
i don't even bother
you are such a no manners teenagers who excited with your lifestyle.

happy birthday abah,

i just can afford to buy this,
HAHA :D

candid!



10.02.2009
today is my dad's birthday :D
we went to jusco yesterday
we ate at nando's
my mom and i bought some presents for my dad
i bought him something with MY OWN MONEY (penat kumpul)
hehe
i'll claim half of the money with my brothers later
they better pay me off or else.. ;o
gtg
im off to tuition
daaaaaa :)

i do regret more than i admit.

i don't know how long this situation will stay like this
but i'll always pray and hoping that it will stay forever
because i've been through the pain for a long time
i don't need the second experience


sometimes i keep thinking why you change so drastically
you treat me very well but the other minute,i feel like i don't even know you
perhaps i'm not good enough
but i learn to take it easy by told myself that i have done my best

something that i wrote a long time ago.

when i can't find the right words to say
just keep waiting and wish it might happen
as time goes by and passes slowly
then realize that can't stand anymore and give up
make up my mind for the best
it's time to let it all out
hoping that it will turns well
suddenly it change to be different
all the question has been answered
who are the one in pain?
should have known that will ended up like this
for god sake
never know things will be so much difficult when it involve about this silly thing
my bad and i have to take it
no matter how hard it is
remind me next time
they are easy come and go just like that.

when?

this is the time
it won't wait,it won't stay
in not being selfish human being
it just too soon and i'm not ready yet
the shadow is too dark
wish i could hide behind it
so nobody know what it's feels alike
i used to believe that
but that feeling has gone for forever
not asking much
just the basic in relationship
can't figure it out how stupid i am
not like others who are really pathetic
i'm trying not to be like one of them
i'm ready to take control for the rest of my life.